Wednesday, October 30, 2013

The Wrecking Ball

Ever since I returned home from the Influence Conference I have felt attacked by the enemy (more so then usual...) Now I am no stranger to his attacks, or falling victim to them but yesterday my heart literally felt like someone was taking a wrecking ball to it... the baby was sleeping, and I grabbed my book to settle into a comfy chair and get lost for awhile... I couldn't even open the book because it literally felt like my heart had a wrecking ball swinging for it the second I sat down... like someone was digging, and scooping, and tearing down walls, all while I attempted to build them up quicker and faster and stronger then before, like y'all my chest actually HURT. This was no enemy attack I know... I know it was God, and I know it is only for my good but sometimes  read all the time I am like a four year old when it comes to God. He says things (or I guess rather hints at them,) and I flat out ignore Him or stick my finger in my ears and say, "lalalalalalalalala I can't hear you."  (SO mature I know ;p )  But why do I really say, "NO" in the first place?! It's because He asks/nudges me to do HARD THINGS, things I'm not in the slightest equipped to do... yeah yeah HE is equipped blah blah blah I've heard it before but still...

I like "My Plans" <-- yes I know God laughs at these, and yes I know everything and anything that has ever been good hasn't gone according to my plan but still... I like my plans...

The ever wonderful Lara Casey played this during her session at Influence and I was literally in tears the entire time... enjoy! I Think John Piper's words might be my favorite part:


I come, God, I come
I return to the Lord
The one who’s broken
The one who’s torn me apart
You strike down to bind me up
You say you do it all in love
That I might know you in your suffering

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

My heart and flesh may fail
The earth below give way
But with my eyes, with my eyes I’ll see the Lord
Lifted high on that day
Behold, the Lamb that was slain
And I’ll know every tear was worth it all

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

Though tonight I’m crying out
Let this cup pass from me now
You’re still more than I need
You’re enough for me
You’re enough for me

[Not only is all your affliction momentary, not only is all your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there. But all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain, from the fallen nature or fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that.
I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! It’s not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what it’s doing. Don’t look to what is seen.
When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at 40, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say, “That’s meaningless!” It’s not. It’s working for you an eternal weight of glory.
Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach his word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.]
Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need


Until Next Time:
God Bless,
Purposefully Chosen


2 comments:

  1. Hi there. Came across your blog and wanted to ask for prayer. Please pray that I will have faith and joy in Jesus

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